Today I decided to tell my husband that I am writing/making this thing, as well as working on the flickr site. Why am I doing it, and for who? Both reasonable questions, but my only reply was 'I don't know yet'. I just feel like I have to do something. But here I am at 1:30 am again, and god knows what I am saying at this point. I have to wake up in 6 hours, so I really just need to go to bed.
I am hungry for some creative experiences. I am tired of talking about being an artist, showing teenagers how to make art. I want to start creating my own work, again, or finally. I feel like someone who had so much 'potential' (a word us teachers love) when I was in highschool and my first attempt at college... but I was young and afraid to take risks. I was worried about being cool, or not being accepted, or simply not having anything original to say/do.
Today the last concern is still there, but the others won't hold me back. In recent years it was work and family, but I am aiming for 2008 to be the year for my creative growth.
So maybe THAT will be the subject of my blog.
2007 was my year to let go of things, and to really get organized. Still working on that one, but I am getting there bit by bit.
2 comments:
i stumbled across your blog through flickr. i saw one of your photos on the home page, it looked neat, so i clicked on it, and then it lead me to your blog.
this entry is exactly how i am feeling right this very moment. i too am absolutely STARVING for some creativity. i too hoped that 2008 would be the year that i got my creative self back. some kind of inspiration to make me feel complete? happy? like i'm contributing in some way?
i too am trying over and over again to create my own work, but it always gets pushed to the side. i am yearning for some inspiration so that i can at least finish one piece of work and feel satisfied with it. i too realized the potential that i had in highschool, and i now so badly wish that i would have at least tried pursueing it in college. but i took another path, was pushed in the opposite direction, one away from art and am finding myself regretting it.
i envy you. a highschool art teacher, WOW! how i miss the art room, paints, paper, charcoal, it felt like home. that room was a great source of inspiration, and so were my art teachers. i miss them. i miss being given a new assignment and having the brain waves start to flow as i planned out what i was going to create. now i find myself sooo far from that place that made me happily creative, that it's almost scary.
i did however find your '365 days of me', inspiring. great idea! i love the camera, it's a great medium. i like freezing moments in time into little rectangles.
check out my flickr sometime: www.flickr.com/photos/richellerae
here's to making sure that 2008 is a creative year for us both. cheers!
we just HAVE to make 2008 our year! Best of luck-- and thanks for your comment.
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